My Cup Full of Secrets

Day 2

I feel like I should start by explaining myself, but there is no need for excuses - I know.  Day 2 really didn’t happen on Day 2 - it happened today (Day 3).  Even though I already had the assignment for Day 2 on Day 1, I still found a way not to complete the assignment when I was supposed to.  Did I have time?  Sure.  So why didn’t I do it when I was supposed to?  I have no idea..well maybe I do. 

I had already taken a peek at the Day 2 assignment on Day 1 - so I knew that I would have to make an assessment of my life on Day 2.  So maybe subconsciously I tried to avoid this assessment because once you see down on paper all the things in your life that you would like to change or that you “hate” - well I’ll just say it gets a little depressing. 

But I should be smart and daring enough to know that in order to change anything you must own up to it and say to yourself “Okay this is how it is”, but you can’t stop there.  The next sentence should be “how do I change it.”  Day 2 should have been an enpowering day - a day of revelations, and I put it off.  Go figure.

But all is not lost.  I completed Day 2 assignment today (Day 3), and I must say that although I didn’t complete the assignment on its assigned day the effect was not lost.  There are many things that I “HATE” about my life

I feel like I should start by explaining myself, but there is no need for excuses - I know.  Day 2 really didn’t happen on Day 2 - it happened today (Day 3).  Even though I already had the assignment for Day 2 on Day 1 I still found a way not to complete the assignment when I was supposed to.  Did I have time?  Sure.  So why didn’t didn’t I do it when I was supposed to?  I have no idea..well maybe I do. 

I had already taken a peek at the Day 2 assignment on Day 1 - so I knew that I would have to make an assessment of my life on Day 1.  So maybe subconsciously I tried to avoid this assessment because once you see down on paper all the things in your life that you would like to change or that you “hate” - well I’ll just say it gets a little depressing. 

But I should be smart and daring enough to know that in order to change anything you must own up to it and say to yourself “Okay this is how it is”, but you can’t stop there.  The next sentence should be “how do I change it.”  Day 2 should have been an enpowering day - a day of revelations, and I put it off.  Go figure.

But all is not lost.  I completed Day 2 assignment today (Day 3), and I must say that although I didn’t complete the assignment on its assigned day the effect was not lost.  There are many things that I “HATE” about my life (namely lifestyle and finances), and this assignment amplified those things.  The next step is trying to figure out how to change it (again the importance of a plan).  However, the assignment also let me see that my life isn’t all bad.  There are some great things and amazing people in my life, and I should appreciate those things as much as I work towards changing the bad. 

So next step is to devise a plan…..How can I turn all this around in my favor?  How can I get what I really want?

Day 1 

Day 1 of this challenge requires me to 1. get a reset notebook 2. choose a personal mantra that represents what I hope to become or believe by the end of the challenge.

I have that first requirement covered (I think).  I am sort of addicted to spiral notebooks and journals  -basically anything bound with paper in between it - so I am sure that I have a fresh one lying around (with dust on it I am sure). 

And as I assumed one has been found.  Its a purple Five Star spiral notebook that is slightly smaller than a regular notebook.  Its size should make it convenient for me to carry around with me (we shall see how that goes - :) <—that is me staying optimistic.

Now the second requirement for today seems to be a little more challenging.  What do I hope to become and believe by the end of this challenge?  *thinking* - A lot can happen in 31 days let me tell you…

I am thinking of something like…

I will become more aware of my goals and strengths in order to fulfill my purpose on this earth

That seems a little robotic to me…I think thats a great goal, but it doesn’t have that push that I need *thinking*

How about…

Fear nothing - especially not your talents and strengths.  Be brave enough to show them off.  Be grateful enough to use them.  

I think I’ve found it! I like the ring of that.  Its strong enough and motivating enough and specific enough to …shall I say it…keep the fire lit! 

Not long ago I heard this quote that opened my eyes completely.  It goes:

A goal without a plan is only a dream

I wish I knew who said it so I can give them their proper credit, but I do know that that sentence says it all.  So while I have a mantra in order to inspire and drive me, I believe that the next necessary step is to take action - even beyond this challenge.  Spending an hour a day completing these assignments is great because they do make you think (from what I have seen in just my first day), but I also believe that in order to really reset your life one must move even further.

Now how the heck I plan to do it is the bigger question…when I find out Ill let you know.

The Beginning…

So this is the beginning of my 31 Day Reset Your Life Challenge.  And let me just start by saying that I in no way went looking for this challenge - I promise you it came to me.  I was minding my business watching a youtube video about natural hair.  The youtuber (glamizini) was talking about something and all I heard was “31 Days” and “Challenge”.  Being both nosey and overly obsessed with self-help material I raced to the happyblackwoman website in order to learn more about the challenge.  So here I am … following the instructions - starting this blog.

So before I begin (since I am technically a day behind - I registered yesterday and I am just not starting the blog - procrastination bites) there may be something you need to know about me.  This will be my first secret exposed on the invisible lines of this blog. 

Okay here goes… I have a difficult time..how shall I put it…following through.  That is about as good as I can describe it.  I start one thing and I’m all fired up about it and ready to change the world, my life, the universe, and four days later I wake up and say “F” it.  As quickly as I am pushed by that flame, the flame disappears, and I am again on the hunt looking for something else to start .. only to not finish AGAIN.

So this challenge has dual purposes (<— is that a word - looks wierd - sorry okay work with me).  Not only am I excited about resetting my world with the help of this challenge, but this is also about showing myself that I am able to successfully start and finish anything. 

Without further ado….here goes nothing….